Saturday, Jan. 23, 2016
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted. I post more on the www.morethan100days.com website, but, decided to do one here as well. I’ll probably post the same thing on the website, so, you can just read it here if you’d like and get the same information.
I think the last thing I posted was about the seizures and stroke Michael had at the end of September. According to the Vanderbilt neurology team at our visit last week, he’s recovered fully from that which is a real blessing. Last week, he went for a routine checkup and followup with all his different doctors theret. The results were not what we expected and certainly not what we had hoped. However, it wasn’t all bad news. The ID doctor did finally take him off the medications for the toxoplasmosis that he’s been on for a year-and-a-half or so about which he was elated, and he’s also been taken off the anti-seizure medication which he was also happy about. That’s some nasty stuff.
Update, Wed., January 27
So, here it is a week after our trip to Vanderbilt. So far all but three tests have come back and all have been negative. While you want to say this is all good news, I’m afraid it just moves us closer to the biopsy. If they can’t explain it with any other test, that probably leaves no choice. However, we will keep you posted. Michael really wants to move forward on this as quickly as possible.
So, how are we doing? Well, it’s been another adjustment. Life is full of adjustments, isn’t it? We were going forward believing that the Lord was moving us in a particular direction for our future and then ‘BAM’ ! What do we do when these things happen? Run. Run as fast as we can; not away from it but to the Lord, grab His hand and run back to face it. What else can we do??? Well, I suppose we could sit around and feel sorry for ourselves, BUT…life goes on! It has to!
The truth of the matter is that we (none of us) know what the future holds. We can have hopes and dreams; we can make plans; we can move forward with faith that moves mountains. All that is healthy. But only God knows what His plans for us are just as Jeremiah 29:11-13 says, and we will learn of those plans if we “seek Him with all of our hearts” because Jeremiah tells us if we do that, we will “find Him”. So, the message is seek….find. Right now, we are seeking; not so much to find God Himself, because we already belong to Him, but, to find His will for our lives even in this.
God, dear ones, doesn’t cause these problems in our lives. However, Job is such a great example of how nothing is a surprise to Him even when it blindsides us. So often it’s because we think we have something all figured out. Why, oh why, do we continue to try to put God in our neat little boxes?
On an interesting note, as I have been praying lately, God gave me a verse yesterday. I’m not sure yet how it applies, but, it’s just interesting. While the entire passage applies to many aspects of our lives right now, I have highlighted the actual part of a verse God gave me.
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the Lord’s renown,
for an everlasting sign,
that will endure forever.”
We so appreciate your continued prayers for us. When we were in the process of receiving all this news at Vanderbilt last week, Michael looked at me from his hospital bed and a different look on his face than I’ve seen recently and quietly said, “This is the beginning of another long journey, I think”. He wasn’t exactly sad or determined when he said that. It was just the statement from a man who has been through so much and has persevered and has overcome, preparing himself to begin fighting another battle. How I love that man and what a blessing and privilege it is to be his wife and partner for life! I wondered yesterday, not without a few sniffles…where will we be spending Valentines this year? We’ve spent an anniversary and a birthday in the hospital at Vanderbilt. I guess it really doesn’t matter. Just as long as we can spend it together.
As always, you are in our hearts, ever near and ever dear,
Michael and Jan